2017 has been a year. I’ve silently struggled with mental health problems, I’ve forced myself to get better, I’ve found the love of my life, I’ve worked my ass off, and I’ve surpassed all of the goals I set myself in January. Since we’re coming to the end of this hectic blogmas month, I decided to take a look back on the crazy year that was 2017, and talk about some harsh, but important things that this year has taught me and what I’m going to change in 2018 to make sure I learn from all of these lessons.
I deserve the universe, not just the stars
I started 2017 with a boyfriend and I’m ending 2017 single – I think I’m winning. I thought I had it in the bag with said person, but it did not work out (surprise.) I thought I’d been the worse human being in the world to him, and tried my hardest to get him to stay in my life – turns out, it wasn’t even my fault. I let myself lose things I loved for a person who didn’t even love me enough to tell me the truth.
2018 goal: Do not let insignificant people get in the way of something I love. I’m only 22, and I’m so career driven at the moment, I don’t even want to think about anything else.
Sometimes people just won’t like you, and that’s not your fault
I spent so long this year trying to make myself look like the best person ever. I tried to change who I was to make people like me. I didn’t realise until much later how badly that was damaging my self-esteem and my mental health. I know now, that those who love me, love me for who I am, and if they don’t like it, or don’t like me, there’s nothing I can do to change that.
2018 goal: Stop letting people define me. I am my own person. I am strong, beautiful, and I don’t need to change for anyone.
Travel is good for the soul
I’ve always been fairly insecure about trying new things. But this year, around August, I came out of my shell. I started trying new things, going new places, and living my life. I’ve spent the last month and a half travelling to London, Bath, Brighton, etc. living the most amazing life ever. I’ve had so many amazing opportunities and met so many amazing people from it. Past-Liz would be very jealous.
2018 goal: If you want to go there, go. Don’t let anyone stop you, not even yourself.
Your mental health is the most important thing
I have a habit of sacrificing my mental health to make sure I don’t upset other people. I will do/say things I don’t believe in and are damaging me so that I don’t hurt them. This has caused me so much hatred for myself, and so many hardships that I felt lost. I now realise the importance of just being honest with myself and my limitations. Afterall, if the people love me, they’ll understand,
2018 goal: Continuing putting myself first. My mental health is more important to me than whether someone thinks I’m cute.
Everything happens for a reason
This is something this year that has truly come to light. If it’s suppose to happen, it will, and that’s okay. You can work hard, push to help something happen, but if it’s not meant to be, it won’t.
2018 goal: Stop panicking. It’s okay if you fail, it’s okay if you don’t succeed, I still love you.
Taking care of your mind, body and soul is paramount
I’ve discussed on this blog before how I suffer with eating problems, and body dysmorphia, but I’ve discovered this year, how not letting insignificant comments about how great I’d look skinny can change your mentality. I’ve started to love myself, even with extra flubber around the middle. I’m loving my skin, I’m feeling my oath, and I finally understand how it feels to be beautiful.
2018 goal: Keep improving. Keep getting confident. Keep loving myself.
No matter how hard you try, someone will always do better than you
Life isn’t a competition. I may not be the smartest, or the most beautiful. But I am me, and that’s perfect. I stopped trying to compete with other lifestyle bloggers, I stopped trying to do the best in my class, I stopped trying to pump out the best press releases and I focused on me. I started doing my best with what I was blogging about, I started focusing on writing detailed and thought through essays and I started putting my heart and soul into what my clients wanted from me, and the results were top notch. I started seeing how only comparing myself, to myself was working in my favour.
2018 goal: Never let anyone else’s success determine your failure.
#SuperDuperChristmasSelfie! 2017 has been a year of sadness, heartbreak, success and love, and I can’t wait to see what comes for me in 2018. I have so much planned and I’m so ready! Bring it on, and Merry Christmas!