For those of you who don’t know, haven’t used the internet before or simply have never gotten into a serious conversation with me, an existential crisis is the moment when you start to question the very foundation of life. I would (not so proudly) admit that I am currently going through an existential crisis and the biggest problem – trying to get out of it. I’m over here trying to get on with everyday life but it’s impossible when I’m questioning my entire existence. It’s a real struggle.
There are a few big giveaways I’ve noticed for when people slip into this mindset and it’s (to me) a never ending spiral of nothing good, which means that inevitably, I will lose track of everything that’s going well in my life to focus on my impending doom.
But Liz, how do I know if I’m in a existential crisis? Let me tell you.
You realise you’re not invincible
One day, everyone you know and love won’t be around anymore, we’re humans, we’re not invincible, but if you find these thoughts sticking to your brain and confusing you for hours on end, I’m sorry.
All of the emotions, all of the time
If you weren’t an emotional wreck before this, you might possibly be whilst you suffer an existential crisis. I find myself stopping and crying at no reason other than “why am I here?” My day may be perfectly average and all of a sudden, BAM – day ruined. How can you go on functioning like a normal human being when you don’t know why you exist?
You constantly reassess your life
Now, I do this on a daily basis. Usually when I’m slumped over my laptop at 3am watching another episode of Akame ga Kill! (totally go watch it) and I realise that I’m stuck on a loop, which usually only changes for a few days and then I revert back to the same old ways (usually with a different anime because I’ve binged all the episodes in a few days.)
But don’t worry too much, I’m great, I’ve accepted all of these things. But what you guys need to realise is this: none of these things really matter, we’ll never get the answers to these questions, we have complete unadulterated control over our lives and we can anything we want. I guess it’s just the choice of decided what to do with our lives that is the hardest thing.
I’ve decided eating the food I love, binging anime, playing video games and occasionally being productive by studying a degree and interning in too many PR companies is the way forward (mainly binging anime and video games atm.)
But what about you? How do you feel about your impending doom? Or have these thoughts never crossed your mind, honestly, I wouldn’t be too shocked if they haven’t. I think I’m alone on this one.